March 2010
48 posts
Today was ,
AMAZING! :) I found out I’m gonna be a daddy. My baby is 5 weeks I believe , we are gonna find out for sure sometime next week. I’m so glad it’s with her , our baby is gonna be the best looking baby alive :) I’m so happy. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow :) goodnight bye. 11/10/10
Today was supposed to be ,
Yet another great day with you , things were going great and then who has to screw it all up for me , my fucking mom of all people my own fucking mom. Ugh I felt like I was getting so close to things being good again and then my mom just has to screw it all up for me. I was planning on yet another great day tomorrow and I had something in mind but no my mom fucked it up , ugh FML!
I think I'm ,
Gonna do something tonight , I’m tired of sitting home and doing nothing trying to talk to you in some way in any way while you just go out and hang with your friends making me feel like you don’t give a crap. It really hurts , I have to start work tomorrow which even though I’m getting paid still doesn’t make me feel any better because I don’t have you and I...
Yep you've just ,
Freaking given up on me :’( you went and had fun with that Korey kid and had him take pictures of you and didn’t even care to talk to me. It’s like fuck Tim right just let him suffer while I go have fun with some nigger. Your being such a jerk , I don’t deserve it. :’( I was dumb enough to think you were actually trying when you weren’t talking to me , no you...
Why aren't you ,
Responding back to me now when I text you? :’( what are you doing? Talking to your mom I hope or something , anything but like hanging with your boyfriend or something. I miss you :( I guess I’ll go play some basketball to pass the time. Text me back please , bye.
Are you kidding me?!
Please shut up? Why are you being so mean. I’m not giving you stress , your giving me stress because you don’t want to try for me. You won’t talk to me through anything , you won’t talk to me on msn , and wtf are you talking about?! What did I “give you”?! That makes you so scared or whatever. This is fucking not right , I knew after that day nothing we talked...
Katlin ,
It’s 5:30 in the morning and I had yet another dream about you. I miss you so much and yes I do remember what the conversation was about now , thanks for being so mean about it. I love you so much and I felt like you really actually still loved me the other day that I saw you and we kissed , I got the butterflies again , and my hands got sweaty , and my heart was racing for you and for what?...
This movie ,
Is making me sad :’( the kissing part is gonna kill me cuz i already want to kiss you again so bad Katlin , I see your picture on my iPod and I can just feel your lips touching mine when we kissed and I want it again so bad , I’m also… Well nevermind I’m sure you know. I wish we could just be together , I’d do anything please tell your parents I’ll do anything....
I guess ,
I’m just gonna watch twilight new moon saga and transformers revenge of the fallen until I fall asleep :’( my mom rented them for me from the red box so I can try to re live the great memories of laying in bed with you at night and watching movies from the red box together. I probably won’t fall asleep , I’ll probably just end up crying all night til I eventually fall...
First of all ,
Idk WTF your talking about and second nothing I say to you is a terrible sceem , :’( idk what your scared for your life for but all I know is I don’t want you to give up on me :’( and I asked if my mom calling your mom to talk to her about me would be a good idea or not , I want to be with you so bad and I’m the one that’s scared that you don’t want to be with...
I thought ,
The webcam was a good idea :’( what if I had my mom call and talk to your mom? I’m losing hope and that’s all I can think of. I just want a chance and I’m willing to do anything :’( please tell me if it’s a good idea or not? Someone , anyone , help me?! :’(
Katlin ,
Why aren’t you trying to talk to me on here or talk to me period? Please don’t go out tonight , I want to be the one
to hug you an kiss you and let you cry it all out , please don’t tell me you want to stay with your boyfriend , please dont tell me your giving up on me and what are you hoping isn’t true? I’m scared :’( and I’m the one hopelessly crying...
Have you read ,
My last post yet Katlin? I miss you :’( bye.
Why do you feel ,
Like hopelessly crying? Is it because you miss me? Because I’ve been crying for weeks because of how much I miss you :’( I had an idea , your mom will probably see this and you won’t be able to but you could talk to me on the webcam? That way we could see each other and make it alittle easier on each other , if you miss me that is. Idk why I didn’t think of it before but if...
I don't know if ,
Your gonna read this or not Katlin but if you do please respond to it on here :’(
I want to be able to take you to daytona so bad , I would buy you the hat you want and whatever else you wanted. I’m gonna get this juicy necklace for you and somehow some way I will find a way to get it to you. I miss you so much it hurts , I get hardly any sleep , I barely eat , and I feel miserable...
Fuck :'(
It’s like I see you talking but you can’t talk to me and it feels like you gave up on me or forgot about me. I feel miserable :’( I guess I’m gonna go for a ride , I wish it was a ride to see you , I miss you and love you so much :’( bye.
Next Saturday is ,
Spring break nationals and you more then likely can’t even go with me cuz your parents won’t let you :’( I probably won’t go if you can’t go with me , please try to talk to me somehow Katlin and please keep trying to talk to your parents about me please? Don’t give up on me :’( I love you , bye.
Today is gonna suck ,
I can already tell. Idk what Katlin did last night , she can’t call me , can’t text me and probably gave up on me. You know you could use like a friends phone to call me or a pay phone or something , anything :’( I need to hear your voice , I need to see you. I miss you so much , I wish your parents would just give me a chance :’( and I hope you didn’t let anyone stay...
Of course ,
You were out getting high and hanging out with people when you said you were gonna be “grounded” yeah so much for that and you probably hung with your boyfriend too I bet. And when you get high who knows who you hang with or what you do or even let them do or can’t help what they do. Why was it scary? I hope you know I got no sleep because of it. You can’t call or text me ,...
Katlin :'(
Why did you go out tonight. None of that was true Katlin I promise , Desiree tried talking to me tonight but I wasn’t having it I promise. Please I’m begging you call me , text me , talk to me on here , anything please :’( bye.
I take it you went out ,
Great :’( who knows what your doing. I was gonna order you something off of juicy but not if you went out tonight and hung out with your boyfriend or did
something you know I wouldn’t like. And he better not stay the night either :’( I love you. Go home please , bye.
I really hope your not talking ,
About me? :’( you know I wouldn’t do something like that Katlin. I haven’t talked to Desiree and I wouldn’t talk to her. I do want to be with you more then anything and I’d do anything to be with you. I don’t know who your talking about hopefully not me but I’m worried about wha your gonna be doing tonight :’( I wish you could see me tonight and I...
Who in the hell!!!
Are you talking about Katlin?! I know damn well your not talking about me!!! I didn’t tell NO ONE I was gonna give them no damn money for some pussy are you crazy I really hope your not talking about me cuz I’ll flip. I’m not desperate for friends I’m content with one or two and I told you that I have a job now and that I would be able to buy you whatever the hell you want...
Idk what you mean by ,
Tonight could go well or could go horrible but it makes me worry. I’m glad your staying home , hopefully your boyfriend won’t be coming over :’( idk what it is that your gonna be posting alot of but I hope you miss me and I hope your thinking about me and I hope you haven’t given up on me and I wish it was like old times and we could go to daytona together tonight but I...
Nothing in this world ,
Could keep me from feeling miserable , no amount of money , no nice car , no nice clothes , nothing. The only thing that could keep me from this miserable feeling is you Katlin , you in my arms again , as my girlfriend again , your amazing lips touching mine , your hand in mine. Fuck why did I have to fuck up , ugh FML! :’(
I wish ,
Your mom would give me a chance , atleast let you talk to me on the phone :’( I put my favorite picture of you back up on my iPod so everytime I get on it I see you , I hope that’s okay. It’s the closest thing I have to you :’( ugh I hate feeling miserable I just wanna take you away and go to another country , we could go to Paris , maybe then we could be together :’(
I'm wearing ,
The same outfit I was wearing when I saw you a couple of days ago too , it was one of the best days of my life and I’m wearing it today too and today is like the worst day of my life , I want the one where I was with you back :’( see when I whispered in your ear I don’t ever want to let you go when we were hugging. I shouldn’t of let go :’( I want that day back...
I love you Katlin :'(
And I miss you. I wish you were here to wipe off my tears like you were the other day. Do you love me too? I hope so :’( it seems like I have no more hope but I’m not gonna give up and I hope you don’t either , I love you so much :’( bye.
I don't know if ,
That here we go thing was for me or not all I know is no matter what I post on here its not gonna convince you not to go out tonight and to call me or text me somehow. If that is for me and you love me and miss me and want to be with me like you said before then you would try harder for me Katlin and not give up. You could atleast break up with him. I know if it was me in your position I would...
I'm sitting in the bathroom ,
At my dads shop crying because if I go out into the shop area everyone will see me :’( so I’ll just sit here for a while and think about you and how I knew you being grounded wasn’t gonna happen and that it was just a bunch of bullshit. I hate this feeling ugh I wish you were just with me :’( I want a hug and kiss again. I miss it , I wish I could of stayed in that moment...
I thought you were grounded ,
And now your going somewhere tonight?! WTF :’( so much for that I knew you weren’t going to be and I know your gonna be hanging with your boyfriend and getting fucked up and shit ugh I can’t take this: my heart hurts every damn day because your not with me and your with someone else and that picture you put up of your boobs hanging out is so not right. God I wish you could call...
Today sucks ,
I feel miserable and I want to see Katlin so bad or atleast talk to her :’( her mom passed by me earlier and it made me feel even more miserable because I know she doesn’t like me and I really wish she did. I want Katlin back in my life so bad , I’d give anything. I really wish you would call me or let me see you today or something Katlin. Don’t give up on me please and...
I hope you haven't ,
Gave up on me or forgot about me Katlin :’( I miss you and idk what’s going on or if you and your mom have talked about anything but I really hope she doesn’t send you to New York :’( idk what I would do with myself. I’d be devastated , please don’t let that happen. I love you so much and I hope somehow some way I hear from you soon , bye :/
I wish I could talk to you ,
Right now :’( I miss you so much Katlin. I really wish things would of went better last night when you talked to your mom about getting back together with me , I would of given anything in the world for her to Say well Katlin if that’s what you really want and that’s what’s gonna make you happy then whatever but he better not screw up this time and don’t worry about...
Just when you think things ,
Are starting to look up again and there just might be hope and you might have a chance to be with the girl you love with all your heart and would give anything to be with her mom flips out on her and my world comes crashing down. I don’t understand , I have a job now and I go to school why can’t they give me a chance to prove I’ve changed. I’ll talk with her dad I’ll...
If you were with me ,
I’d easily be able to get you that stuff Katlin but you know your mom says no one time about it and it’s like your gonna give up on me just like that? I really hope you don’t katlin , please don’t give up on me. I don’t want you to have to move to new York ever I love you Katlin and that would absolutely crush me but at the same time I don’t want you to give up...
Up early ,
Again it’s 6:20 a.m I slept okay I guess , had a good dream for once. I hope it actually comes true though , that would be nice. I guess I’ll probably get up and take a shower and get ready for the day seeing as how I probably won’t be able to fall back asleep now that I’m wide awake. I miss falling asleep with her in my arms and waking up next to her , I hope that one day...
Going to daytona real quick ,
With who?
7 hours ,
Feels like 7 days :/
I hope ,
You’ll maybe call me tonight and let me know what your mom thought about what you talked about. My dad gave me $40 today to last til he gets back Monday night. I’ll be up late , idk it’s just been hard for me to sleep lately but it was a really good day so maybe I’ll get some sleep but it depends on how the rest of the night goes. Call me k , bye.
I played a game ,
And i bet that if I win I would be with you before spring break nationals. I won , it didn’t make me feel any better about the situation , FML! Call me tonight please Katlin :’( I hope you didn’t let your boyfriend stay the night because I really need to talk to you , so bad. I love you , I wish you still loved me. Can I ask you a question? Did you think about me at all today...
Yet another ,
Shitty day :’( I got to school late , then I got to text and talk to Katlin but it wasn’t the way I wanted and she said her boyfriend was taking her to seaworld and it made my day absolutely horrible. I could of taken her , why did she have to go with him :( and to make things worse she didn’t talk to me all day Which just made my day drag on and I had to think all day if she...
Great ,
Today starts the miserable day , first I wake up late for school then I get to think about Katlin hanging with her boyfriend all day today , and who knows what they are going to be doing or what they are gonna do tonight , then I have to sit and wonder if she’s even gonna call me today like she said she might , I just wish she would break up with him and come see me and let me give her a...
You know Katlin ,
I’d love more then anything for you to call me tomorrow when you get a chance but the fact of the matter is your gonna spend the day hugging and kissing and hanging with your boyfriend and your gonna get on the phone with me afterwards and I’m not gonna mean anything like I felt I did for a split second tonight , all those sweet things I said and things I said we would go do together...
Just when I think everything ,
Is going great and I’m actually doing okay my whole world comes crashing down once again and she says idk what I’m even doing I feel dumb for calling you. Yeah thanks for hitting me where it hurts when I was being so nice to you but of course even when I’m nice to you it gets me nowhere :’( and the worst part is now I know your gonna be spending the whole day with your...
I hate this feeling ,
I didn’t mean to do all of those things I did in the past Katlin. I took some of your guy friends away for a reason and the chicks , there was only two I ever took away and that’s Sam and Laura , I didn’t mean for you to feel that I was making it to where you had no life because I never wanted it to be that way. I’m sorry I ever proposed to you but I thought it was a good...
I want to be with you ,
Again so bad Katlin , please break up with him and give me another chance. I want to be able to come over and see you , be there for you when your not feeling good. Go to the store and but things for you like chocolates and things like that when you need them. I want you to come with me to my car meets on Thursday night and if you did that for me we would do something you want to do too atleast...
I get to begin ,
Yet another night where I get very little sleep if any at all :’( it’s 12:35 a.m and I know I’ll easily be up another 2 to 3 hours thinking about you and crying Katlin. I have not got more then 4 hours of sleep in over a week and when I have to be up by 8 to shower and get ready and at school before 9:30 it makes it really hard and stressful on me. I never had to feel this way...
Katlin please I'm begging you ,
Just call me one last time that’s all I’m asking is one last time and here what I have to say if you like it then maybe I’ll be in luck if not I guess that’s my last chance :/ but please atleast give me this. I think I atleast deserve one more chance to talk to you , please don’t ignore me :/ maybe if I talk to you it will help me sleep tonight.
February 2010
24 posts
It doesn't matter what I say ,
To you it’s like I say something and if you even read if your like hah whatever and you go about your day. I could say I love you with all my heart and that I would do anything and I mean anything in this world to be with you again and it wouldn’t even phase you. It’s like you just laugh at it and post something about your boyfriend to throw it in my face and make me feel more...