TimandKatlin

It’s 5:30 in the morning and I had yet another dream about you. I miss you so much and yes I do remember what the conversation was about now , thanks for being so mean about it. I love you so much and I felt like you really actually still loved me the other day that I saw you and we kissed , I got the butterflies again , and my hands got sweaty , and my heart was racing for you and for what? For a one day thing where I thought you were gonna be the old Katlin again but then I wake up after my dream and see all these posts from you from last night and it seems like you’ve just given up and aren’t even trying with your mom to fix things so we can be together :’( I wanted my mom to call your mom so bad last night and try to fix things but you never said if I could or not. I was on msn messenger for hours last night wishing you would get on so I could see you and ended up falling asleep watching transformers wishing you were there to watch it in bed with me like old times. I see you got video on your phone finally , after months and months of me wanting you to get it and now it’s no go for me because your not with me :’( I wanted you so bad last night , I wanted to see you , kiss you , hold you in my arms , and fall asleep next to you but I always have to fall asleep and wake up alone and I feel more and more miserable each time :’( I hope your not back to loving your boyfriend again and forgetting about me. I hope you love me and I hope you haven’t given up on me. Please don’t Katlin :’( we can do this , I guess I’ll try to go back to bed but after reading your posts it will probably be impossible , good night , hah yeah right :’( bye.